Soul Music

Where to finish?A dark, stormy night. A coach, horses gone, plunging through the rickety, useless fence and dropping, tumbling into the gorge below. It doesn't ...even strike an outcrop of rock before it hits the dried riverbed far below, and erupts into fragments.Miss Butts shuffled the paperwork nervously. Here was one from the girl aged six: "'What We Did On our Holidys: What I did On my holidys I staid with grandad he has a big White hors and a garden it is al Black. We had Eg and chips.'"Then the oil from the coach lamps ignites and there is a second explosion, out of which rollsbecause there are certain conventions, even in tragedy--a burning wheel.And another paper, a drawing done at age seven. All in black. Miss Butts sniffed. It wasn't as though the gel had only a black crayon. It was a fact that the Quirm College for Young Ladies had quite expensive crayons of all colors.And then, after the last of the ember spits and crackles, there is silence.And the watcher.Who turns, and says to someone in the darkness: YES. I COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING.And rides away.Miss Butts shuffled paper again. She was feeling distracted and nervous, a feeling common to anyone who had much to do with the gel. Paper usually made her feel better. It was more dependable.Then there had been the matter of ... the accident.Miss Butts had broken such news before. It was an occasional hazard when you ran a large boarding school. The parents of many of the gels were often abroad on business of one sort or another, and it was sometimes the kind of business where the chances of rich reward go hand in hand with the risks of meeting unsympathetic men.Miss Butts knew how tohandle these occasions. It was painful, but the thing ran its course. There was shock, and tears, and then, eventually, it was all over. People had ways of dealing with it. There was a sort of script built into the human mind. Life went on.But the child had just sat there. It was the "politeness" that scared the daylights out of Miss Butts. She was not an unkind woman, despite a lifetime of being gently dried out on the stove of education, but she was conscientious and a stickler for propriety and thought she knew how this sort of thing should go and was vaguely annoyed that it wasn't going."Er ... if you would like to be alone, to have a cry-" she'd prompted, in an effort to get things moving on the right track."Would that help?" Susan had said.It would have helped Miss Butts.All she'd been able to manage was: "I wonder if, perhaps, you fully understood what I have told you?"The child had stared at the ceiling as though trying to work out a difficult problem in algebra and then said, "I expect I will."It was as if she'd already known, and had dealt with it in some way. Miss Butts had asked the teachers to watch Susan carefully. They'd said that was hard, because ...There was a tentative knock on Miss Butts's study door, as if it was being made by someone who'd really prefer not to be heard.She returned to the present."Come," she said.The door swung open.Susan always made no sound. The teachers had all remarked upon it. It was uncanny, they said. She was always in front of you when you least expected it."Ah, Susan," said Miss Butts, a tight smile scuttling across her face like a nervous tick over a worried sheep. "Please sit down.""Of course,Miss Butts."Miss Butts shuffled the papers."Susan. . . ""Yes, Miss Butts?""I'm sorry to say that it appears you have been missed in lessons again.""I don't understand, Miss Butts."The headmistress leaned forward. She felt vaguely annoyed with herself, but ... there was something frankly unlovable about the child. Academically brilliant at the things she liked doing, of course, but that was just it; she was brilliant in the same way that a diamond is brilliant, all edges and chilliness."Have you been . . . doing it?" she said. "You promised you were going to stop this silliness.""Miss Butts?""You've been making yourself invisible again, haven't you?"SusDetailed info »« Brief info